Feeling Restless

That feel has lodged itself in my heart again this weekend... that ache...not the kind you or even want to numb out to, but the kind that lures you, coaxes you to notice, to see more deeply, to understand.

It's that restless ache that beckons, "there's something more..." No, I haven't been reading another book about heaven, but that doesn't stop my thoughts from going there and wanting to fully live there--everything encapsulated in joy, nothing tarnished by deformity, spirits wholly the way God meant for them to be. That's what this ache is doing to me.

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

I don't think we should shun our heavenly homesickness. We should let it motivate us.

So what do you do when you can't be home yet?  (I'm sorry. I don't believe heaven is here, despite what some may think).  Some would say you numb out, "Forget you're not home. Pretend this is home; you'll be happier that way."  Will I?

Others plead, live in sacrifice.  If this world really does hold nothing for you, act like it.  Start living like you are going home some day.  Because this isn't it. 

This quote by C.S. Lewis comes from Mere Christianity

Most of us find it very difficult to want “Heaven” at all – except in so far as “Heaven” means meeting again our friends who have died. One reason for this difficulty is that we have not been trained: our whole education tends to fix our minds on this world. Another reason is that when the real want for Heaven is present in us, we do not recognise it. Most people, if they had really learned to look into their own hearts, would know that they do want, and want acutely, something that cannot be had in this world. There are all sorts of things in this world that offer to give it to you, but they never quite keep their promise.”

I think this ache shouldn't propel us toward further attempts at self-gratification, but at a deeper desire and motivation to live outside ourselves (and out of our boundaries)... for isn't that what we are doing anyway?

My life is pretty meaningless if I try to coax through my homesickness with recreation, food, pleasure, achievements  and relationships. However, that ache that God has left within us will keep us focused on our true home and our true Joy, inspiring others to see it too.


Revelation 22:3-4 No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. ⁴ They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. ⁵ There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever.